BFFs and some shitty randomness

I don't tell my bestfriend everything. I just don't feel like I can tell her everything, that she won't spill what I tell her. Yes, I don't trust her that much. Sometimes, I feel closer to my recent friends than her, whom I've known since we were kids. Come to think of it, I have no one to talk to when I'm down. Anyway, I don't really confide in anyone, If I do, it's probably about something not that important. That's why I need this blog, to vent out those emotions I don't show to people. I don't really care if people read this or not. I don't care.

I cry inside the bathroom, or at night, when the lights are out. That's how much of a loner I am. Yes, pathetic, I am. I even talk to myself. Sometimes, I pretend I'm talking to someone. I pretend someone's listening and I imagine what that someone would say, and we have a conversation. Yes, I have an imaginary someone.

If you ask people about me, they'd normally tell you that I'm friendly, I have a lot of friends, a lot of people know me, I'm fun to be with. Yeah, I may be all of those, but that's just a part of me. I don't think there's someone that knows everything about me. No one really knows me.

I'm so good at making others feel better. In fact, I can make practically anyone feel better about themselves. Anyone and everyone except myself. Yeah, that's how miserable my life is. People go to me for advices.

I'm sorry for this random shit, I just have to let this out. Thanks for reading anyway.

GOD

Why do we have to confess to priests? Can't we just talk directly to God? Why do we go to church on sundays? Why do you have to pray to God first before He helps you? Is he that insensitive?

I'm so confused. I no longer want to believe in God. But I have to just for the sake of having something to believe in. So I'd have something to blame when something goes wrong. But there are a lot of inconsistencies. Half of me wants to be an atheist, the other wants to still believe in God.

NYMPHO

What's the difference between a nymphomaniac and a sex addict? Or is it just the same?

I think I'm a nympho.. maniac.. :|

DICK FACE

And I don't think there's anything wrong with that.

Image from: http://boobookittyfuck.deviantart.com/art/be-my-hangover-girl-4596165

SMILE

Sometimes, it's easier to put on a smile than to tell people how you feel. How you really feel. It's just easier that way. They don't bug you. They don't ask you questions that would make you remember why you can't put on your real smile.

Image from: http://SpyKate.deviantart.com/art/Smile-80063452

PARENTS

My parents expect so much from me. It's killing me. Why can't they understand that I'm not an overachiever like them? :[

MAKEUP

Awful, I know.

Image from: http://garotoslipknot.deviantart.com/art/Fairy-Make-Up-37780341

Thank Yous from Z

Thank You all for your emails. I was hoping but not really expecting people to pay attention to what I write. Your emails make me happy. Thank you Thank you Thank you, really. :)

N.B.K.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN KISSED.

YEAH, I'M A LOSER. :[

A QUESTION FOR GUYS

Would you mind a threesome with your girlfriend and another guy? :)

Answer honestly please, Thank You. :)

This got me laughing

PORN

I watch porn everyday. I'd like to try DP someday. :)

*I'm actually watching porn right now. *meow*

I Like Older Men

At a young age, I've found myself fantasizing about being with older men and having sex with them. and I'd probably even have go out with men twice my age. I don't know why. I just prefer older, more built men.

BTW, it also has a limit. Not more than 25 years older than me. :) heehee

THIEF!

When I was 7 or 8 years old, I stole something from the mall. I stole an eraser. My mom wouldn’t buy it, so I just stole it. Why ask for it when you can just take it. But, I can honestly admit that for my entire life, the whole 20 years (Well except those years that I was still an infant), that I have only shoplifted twice. Just twice. The other one was when I was around 14 or 15. I stole a cologne because I didn’t have enough money to pay for it. The nervousness I’ve felt as I walked past a security guard and walked my way towards the exit of the store was enough for me to promise myself to never do that again. And until now, I’ve been keeping that promise. :) I’m a good girl. :)

VIRGIN

I'M A VIRGIN TO COCKS, BUT I'M A WHORE TO MY FINGERS.

I've always wondered how it would feel like to have sex. If a cock would feel as good as my fingers.. or better.

*Image from (http://borntosparkle.deviantart.com/art/virgin-73887193)

I HATE MY FAMILY

*Image from (http://pictureguy.deviantart.com/art/Family-Portrait-Feet-1922855)

What's this blog for? Who is Z anyway?

 

Who am I?

         Obviously, Z isn't my real name. The letter 'Z' isn't even included in my name. I have no idea why I chose the name Z, maybe because it's the last letter of the alphabet. So what? I don't know. Anyways, just call me Z.

 

What is this blog for?

I created this blog because I got inspired by secretzen(dot)com. I posted a couple of 'secrets' of mine but I still haven't seen it on the site. Now, thanks to my super short patience and secretzen's super long 'moderation' that I ended up with this blog.

All that I post here are based on my own experiences. I want to express my feelings the best way I possibly can. The pictures I will be using are from the internet for I am not artistic; I cannot make such beautiful works. Don’t worry, I will credit the creators of the pictures.

  

Email me if you need to talk to someone and I’ll do my best to help you. :) secretsofz@yahoo.com

Please feel free to comment on any my posts. :)

 *Image is from (http://Gur1.deviantart.com/art/350Z-18745882)